My goodbye so long withheld,
As you shut the door on me yesterday.
I hold my loyalty to myself now.
Loyalty is nothing without someone to devote to.
So this is hopefully my last goodbye.
My last goodbye to our friendship,
That no longer is.
My last goodbye to remorsing,
The thing that I thought would always be there.
My last goodbye to hoping,
Without a chance of it to rise again.
Blinded by your perception,
I didn't replace you.
Blinded by confusion,
I could not tell you.
Guarded by walls,
You were already gone.
What I thought was a true friend,
Slipped away from me.
In a hard place,
Without you made it even harder.
In a
Arms of comfort can not make the rest of the world right.
Push through the days of acting only to have it build up once more.
The anger over flowing,
Knowing that tomorrow will be filled with the same pain.
Another day trying to be someone else,
Will this ever end?
Will I be able to shed this skin and become someone that I feel I belong?
Is it wrong to want to see the a face different than what I see now in the mirror?
This cloud of depression always hovering in my eyes as I see myself.
This is not me.
This is not my soul.
Do I live in this cloud of depression only to make others happy?
Or do I pave an new life for myself?
One
My goodbye so long withheld,
As you shut the door on me yesterday.
I hold my loyalty to myself now.
Loyalty is nothing without someone to devote to.
So this is hopefully my last goodbye.
My last goodbye to our friendship,
That no longer is.
My last goodbye to remorsing,
The thing that I thought would always be there.
My last goodbye to hoping,
Without a chance of it to rise again.
Blinded by your perception,
I didn't replace you.
Blinded by confusion,
I could not tell you.
Guarded by walls,
You were already gone.
What I thought was a true friend,
Slipped away from me.
In a hard place,
Without you made it even harder.
In a
Arms of comfort can not make the rest of the world right.
Push through the days of acting only to have it build up once more.
The anger over flowing,
Knowing that tomorrow will be filled with the same pain.
Another day trying to be someone else,
Will this ever end?
Will I be able to shed this skin and become someone that I feel I belong?
Is it wrong to want to see the a face different than what I see now in the mirror?
This cloud of depression always hovering in my eyes as I see myself.
This is not me.
This is not my soul.
Do I live in this cloud of depression only to make others happy?
Or do I pave an new life for myself?
One
I am sweet and nice and the most caring person. i am crazy but loving. Protective and your worse enemy if you get on my bad side. I am not what you expect. Blunt and simply me. Take it or leave it! :) hehe and did i mention crazy in love!
Current Residence: Spokane, WA Favourite genre of music: rock and country baby! Favourite style of art: photography or acrylic paint MP3 player of choice: iPod! Wallpaper of choice: Something that is amazing photography Personal Quote: "everybody is special. everbody. every body is a hero, a lover, a fool, a villain. everybody.&
Things are going so fast!! Life is pretty much insane! So on the 23rd, we find out the gender! We have three girl names and a boy name already picked out! Plus I love seeing my love slowly put the peices together to become who she really is! I can easily see two years down the road physically being married to a beautiful transgendered suicide girl! But until then we both deal with the physical appearance!
No matter what this child will have two amazing parents who love them, even if we arent normal!
On another note, I really wish I could get my peircings and tattoos but it has to wait :( but the adrenaline going through your body could hurt
So morning marks the 8th month being married to my beautiful transgirl and also 16 weeks of carrying my ever growing little one. Those who have had a child would understand what I mean when I saw that I'm spending time with my little one. It's just relaxing and peaceful to have my hands over my belly as I speak my mind to them. I don't feel so alone.
Life is good, not what I expected but good.
Not only did I set up my photography website this last weekend; but I also got a Flickr set up, Model Mayhem, and Facebook all set up! They are all linked together! I am really trying to get my feet off the ground and build my portfolio! I have a photo shoot to set up soon with a girl with a really edgy look! I can't wait! This one be really fun and bring a whole other angle to what I already have! But I'm still looking to even add more! I am on this quest to get doing at something I love even if it only brings in a little! Now back to updating my pictures on here!
Melissa
Website: http://harleephotography67.webs.com/
Flickr: http://www.fl